Hi.

Feels weird to be updating my blog again.

Its been wht? 4mths.

Have been too lazy/busy/unmotivated.... to update it.

Afterall, life has been a continuous cycle of mundane day-to-day stuff

but the holidays are here so i feel tht this is the best time to get my blog alive and kicking again.

:)

So wht has changed ths past 4mths?

Well for one thg i got promoted from J1 to J2, got tanned and fair again (and soon tan again!), hair went from wavy and short to wavy and straight

but one thing is that my attitude remains the same.

Some positive, some negative.

Procrastinating for one. I an never kick it.

Maybe because i've been living comfortably my whole life so there's no motivation to get up and get going u knw. set the drive.

But seriously being e top of class? getting the best grades? is tht all there is?

I'm never one for being competitive.

I feel tht competitiveness is a sign of trying to gain power.

Why do you compete? if nt for a title or the glory, the name, the power it brings you over others?

Thn again do we have a choice?

We can't escape. Whether we like it or nt if you are born into this world

(not e earth as in gaia mind you but ths fast-paced/material-oriented life)

You have no choice.

It's do or die.

A survival game.

BUT you may choose to not conform to it.

BUT like the famous line says

"It's a dog eat dog world out there, honey".

God save me.

Post 3: Truly a Day Out

Just came back from a llloooongg day out.

Was away frm home frm 10.30am to 9.30 pm.

Went to juronglibrary to hav PW meeting with Siva, Farahly & Marilyn

after which had lunch with two of them (Siva/Farah) @ IMM

then to Queensway Shopping Centre with Siva to find shoes (Siva) and a bag (me).

We looked arnd for like 2+hrs after until we finally found our choiced items frm e same shop.

lol.

I ended up with bagS instead of a bag.

I couldnt help myself!

both the adidas bags were too nice for me to give up one for the other

so i ended up with both.

adidas is e best sports brand (to me anyways) but

i hate to look @ e stella mccartney collection cause it makes me green with envy.

haha.

i think i have two new obsessions: bags and shades

not healthy at all.

i have to keep telling myself to stop.

and i will.

Anyways, after that, i went to SSC to meet up with my sister and grandmama.

Thy had dinner at Rubinah without me cause i was too late :(

i have major craving for naan and tandoori chicken @ e moment.

*salivates at some food porn*

hahaha.

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i think i want to learn a martial art.

One that uses weapons like a long stick or sword.

i want those olden days sword fighting skills.

lol.

Will research more on it first.

Diana's Schedule for tomorrow:

religious studies in e early morn, skateboarding in the late morn, cycling in e early aftnn, hmk during late aftnn and PW @ night.

ZzzZZzz.

totally exhausted.

P.S I want those specs that Luna Lovegood wore in e train to Hogwarts in Half-Blood Prince.

she's totally my fav. character in Harry Potter

I have been too trusting,

too naive of people.

I was never suspicious about anyone

but that was before i knew what they are capable of doing.

All my life, I have been genuine in terms of anything i offer to people.

A smile, a greeting or a friendship.

All truly came from my heart without any ulterior motive or thought.

But im totally dissappointed now.

To offer a part of myself to people with pure generosity and openness

and in return

to be bombarded with such opinions,

it breaks my spirit.

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P.S.

i dont know how to feel now.

my soul is drained out of me.

i am emotionless.

dead.

God Give Me Strength.

From FML,

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I so do not want that to happen to me.

Im always a coward when it comes to confessions so i seriously hope it does not come to the point in which i lose that special someone because i didnt dare confess.

Im doomed.

My fav. comment by a person to the above situation:

(Its worth the read)

I hate to say this, because I am a romantic and I love love stories and whatnot, but you deserve it for not speaking up sooner. I know it's hard for people to confess their feelings to another person because of fears that that other person may not feel the same and/or that it might ruin the friendship, but this FML shows that it's much better to just put it out there and get it off your chest than to keep it inside. If the other person doesn't feel the same, things can still be alright. I have had close friends confess their feelings to me, and when I didn't feel the same, I would just say so in the nicest way possible. Nothing ended up weird because of it. It's only weird if you make it weird or if the other person isn't mature enough to handle it well, in which case, they might not be worth liking anyway.

#37 - On 07/04/2009 at 5:05am by englishmuffin

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thumbs up.

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